I just need to figure out what to do about it, as I still want to keep up with my exercising, and that means being able to have the time after work--the pool is only open until 7:00pm, and if I run after 9:00pm, I tend to wake up in the middle of the night totally energized and have trouble getting back to sleep. I have no idea why swimming has the opposite effect--I'm POOPED after my pool days! On my pool days, I can just come back to work afterwards, even though I doubt that I will want to. I will be coming in on Saturdays, and that is one of my exercise rest days, so this works perfectly. I've tried timer apps that cut your day into 25 min segments plus 5 minute rest periods, but the ticking has just become another sound to block out. I only wish that there were some sort of way to restrict my internet without removing my ability to access the websites that I need to do my job, like Blackboard, my inbox, etc. Any ideas would be appreciated!!! And yes, I know that writing here is just another distraction if it is done during the workday...
On a completely different note, I read something on a blog post by Elizabeth Duffy today that grabbed my attention:
The repulsive truth is that nothing will provide satisfaction in life but self-gift. Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Married, Single or Religious, you have to find a way to give yourself to others, while expecting nothing meaningful back in return.
Self-gift without expecting anything back in return....not something that is easily done, no matter what the relationship, but that is what Jesus did for us. If I am serious about imitating Him in my life, then I need to keep that at the forefront of my mind all the time. I'm still learning how to do this, but it is one of those things that kind of hit me right between the eyes today as I read this. One thing that I've noticed since getting divorced is that I'm often forgetting to think about others as I make decisions in my life. This isn't necessarily completely a bad thing, as it is helping me to recapture my identity as a person in my own right rather than being the enabler of my ex's bad behavior. At the same time, no matter what my state in life, I am called to give myself to others, just as all of us are, and I'm wondering if I have swung too far in the opposite direction.
|This is my favorite depiction of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. It just seems to depict what devotion to the Sacred Heart is all about--Jesus giving us His Heart. Someday, I want a nice print of this for my wall. It is by Desvallieres.|